no, but…

31 Mar

I take a lot of vitamins and supplements everyday.  Getting them out the the jars and into my stomach is a morning ritual.  Each morning it hits me that I can hardly tell the difference between yesterday morning and today.  The same action repeated every day makes the days seem short.  Staring at myself brushing my teeth at night can give me the same time-warp feeling, as if just a minute or two pass, and here I find myself again, taking my vitamins, brushing my teeth.  The moments between that shake things up can pull me out of habits and patterns, make each moment fresh again.

A part of me, like the part that knows to beat my heart, the part that knows to digest food, the part that takes me on  my night time journeys, also draws experiences to me – custom made to help me learn, grow, wake up again and again.

I Love love love seeing the things I bring into my experience:

from breath-holding challenges to downhill releases,

from upturning changes to much of the same,

from tsunami waves to gentle currents of ease…

we all get it all.

I’m playing all parts on this journey as well as watching her fill her plate from the buffet spread  out before her.

The funniest thing to watch – to my dark humor –  is me being blind to my own blind spots.  The turn around of karma has me laughing at someone tripping only to find myself sliding on a banana peel moments later. (metaphor!  Not laughing at people tripping:)  The funny part is me on the banana peel.

The name of this blog in spotlights is me seeing my  own life as improv.  The first rule you learn in improv is “Yes, and…”  meaning that when your partner initiates a scene, you accept the reality of that scene.  You do not contradict the world they are trying to create; you join it, and add to it.

So my premise for this blogging was that the path to remembering involved saying “Yes, and…” to life itself.  Life flow is my partner who initiates scenes and I answer yes…

So I was called out of the blue and asked to audition for an improv company. WHOOO HOO to most, but  I was so surprised and confused by this, I actually started to answer with a “No, but…”

My friend DK sent me these wise, wedging words –  He is ever  lovely to hold up the mirror–

Morpheus

For all my “knowing” the path, here I was saying, “NO, but…”

So I released any thoughts I had, went to the silly, old audition because IT didn’t matter for anything except to walk the path with a YES as this was clearly being placed before me by my scene partner – life.    I had a crazy good time.

I was ready with my, “oh that’s okay, it was just fun to try” response (insert eye roll here) when they called to ask me to join the company.

When this call made my heart race, I was confused.  My heart hasn’t raced that way in a long while.  Seems a good reminder that  I am in a body, and I have blood and a heart and a mind and adrenaline.  There are activities that each of us enjoys, flows to, plays at.  Expressing these diminsions of ourselves is joining in to life, is part of the reason we take on a body.  What is up with my “No, but…?”

no matter.

The lesson is for me.  In All Ways.

Yes, dammit,  yes, and………….here i go!

“…one who finds somehow in each moment, comes to each moment, fresh, not harboring some projections about what you intend to do and what you have done before – The excellence of that State so few enjoy…as stateless state…a complete freedom, your whole life can be like this.”  – Mooji

15 Responses to “no, but…”

  1. Awake in 365 Days March 31, 2013 at 1:58 pm #

    Hey Marga, loves it! This lesson is for me too – thanks for reminding me 🙂

    • marga t. March 31, 2013 at 2:18 pm #

      Thanks Erin. Funny how sometimes I roll more easily with the “perceived” challenges than the blessings. Lessons in the duality. The challenges are blessings and the blessings are challenges…but out of mind, everything just happens…good journeying to you, my friend!

  2. Zen Doe March 31, 2013 at 2:23 pm #

    Wonderful and inspiring post. Love your energy!! The “yes… and” of improv is such an awesome metaphor for our path. Well written!!

    • marga t. March 31, 2013 at 10:47 pm #

      So nice to connect with you, here, Zen Doe! I like your energy too!

  3. Alison March 31, 2013 at 2:46 pm #

    Wooohooo! Congratulations! You will have a blast.
    As for the message – yes, and . . . . . ., this too . . . . ., and this . . . . . . . . and this . . . . . .
    Saying yes to life instead of having an agenda. I needed the reminder instead of getting myself all tied up in knots trying to get the blog up to date. Thank you.
    xoxox

    • marga t. March 31, 2013 at 10:50 pm #

      You know this buffet, of course 🙂 All of our knots come in such seemingly individual ways that are all the same. Peacful flow to you, Alison!

  4. errinspelling.wordpress.com March 31, 2013 at 2:51 pm #

    that was beautifully written and congratulations!

    • marga t. March 31, 2013 at 11:21 pm #

      Thank you, Errin! Hope your flow is good today 🙂

  5. lauriesnotes March 31, 2013 at 6:46 pm #

    Sometimes it’s a bit funny to observe…
    Congratulations..
    Love the yes, and…

    • marga t. March 31, 2013 at 10:48 pm #

      I feel like I have lived my life 3 feet behind and a little above, watching the show…did I just say that out loud 🙂
      Peace and love sent to you Laurie!

      • lauriesnotes April 1, 2013 at 4:52 am #

        And back to you 🙂

      • lauriesnotes April 1, 2013 at 9:30 am #

        I used to think that was odd…but it was suggested recently to me that this is a pretty useful skill 🙂 It’s good to be flexible.

  6. Leisa March 31, 2013 at 7:50 pm #

    Ahhh Yes Yes Yes!!!! I think you’ll love the collective reading I have just finished for the month of April Marga!!! 😉

  7. britlight April 2, 2013 at 1:21 pm #

    Thank you so much for posting the words of Mooji! I’ma have to listen many times!

    • marga t. April 3, 2013 at 4:05 pm #

      I listen many times too! Hope you”re doing well.

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