When my kids were little, sick days – strangely – held a welcome clarity.
A day full of activity was instantly erased and turned into a day of service for the ill. While I sympathized with their bodily suffering, selfishly, I enjoyed that I knew what I was supposed to do; with absolute single-mindedness or even no mindedness, I was to care for them.
Really, everyday, we know what we are supposed to do, but often it doesn’t feel like that.
I have the memory of floundering with questions throughout this life: What am I supposed to do? How do I shape my experience? How do I spend my time and energy? and the dreaded, WHAT IS MY PURPOSE?
Every micro moment of our now is a mirror of the flow of what is. The Sick Day holds a clue for EVERY DAY. For me I see that I am to Accept the Moment, the Flow, the Mirror of right now.
Sometimes, I am able clear the decks and merge with the flow. Sometimes, I resist.
A recent example from my corner of resistance turned to flow:
I was late for work on Thursday. I had a momentary knee jerk of the speedy, rushy, worry stress. My body said, yuck, I don’t like this feeling. This time, I was able to see it, switch into the now and just observe the experience of being late, without attachment. I arrived about 5 minutes late to a hallway full of students; we exchanged smiles and laughs while I unlocked the door and apologized for keeping them. The experience was actually enjoyed, as there was no worry, guilt, shame, just flow.
Here’s a surprise: the flow of respect and love with my students even increased. It seems they felt closer to me in my imperfection and my comfort with that. I saw that they also loved being able to forgive me.
But even if the reaction to my tardiness had been what one thinks of as unpleasant, that mirror could just be observed as well, without definition. The lack of attachment, though, often does seem to allow others to join the flow with me, I observe.
My purpose is to do this now in this body, to live it, to watch it, to experience it – all around me. It is clear, moment to moment, we are always right on time 🙂
Life as Improv 
Fabulous post!!!
Bowing to you, sister!
I had such a day to day, I was going to call it ‘Surrender’
What yesterday I had been fighting,
today became an ally.
“Surrender.” So glad to hear it!!
Fabulous job. The first time I have been to your blog. Really impressive I look forward to reading more in the future.
Thank you 🙂 I enjoyed a “tip-ot-the-iceberg” peek into your corner as well – great ponderings. Enjoying the sharing!
I like your clock. Can I have it?
We can share it , for sure. Hopefully, this will become the universal clock. Always, right on time…