Tag Archives: Letting go

if i ever forget again, i’m putting this here to remember

27 Jul

Even leisure can be a to-do list:

___  get out in nature,

___  bathe,

___  relax!!!!

___  pet the cat,

___  listen to the owl,

___  go to yoga,

___  sit silently for x amount of minutes,

___  eat nutritious food,

but true letting go hammers no list.

Health comes in its own time with no terms.

Music is found under layers of clutter, cleared away.

No one was actually keeping score.

The list keeper is happy to turn the reigns over,

as long as she is

convinced

converted

at last

by the magic mother once again –

she is stunned into silence by a something larger

that she cannot understand.

She is silenced finally in

open space full of nothing

no appointment

no calls to make

no bills to pay

no food to eat

no person expecting…anything.

How many years does it take to clear space like this?

Many and none –

a miracle

this island

in the middle of doing

always existing, almost invisible

right here

a chair

a breeze

an open ear

without a ready response

no sizing up

no plan

no worry

houses lost

clothes outgrown

a trillion cicadas clacking, mating and dying

while this body learned to have no clock

learned that needs will make themselves known

without having to cry –

a baby again

in the arms of such a large mother

as I can be to myself.

No other task was ever more important;

no job was ever asked.

 

 

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