When the flow of adrenaline hit the belly
I knew something big was approaching.
I was kicking the dirt
and blowing brrrray
behind the starting gate door.
Small portion fear mixed with ample dollops excitement
ready for the next disaster
sure to be a doozy.
A rough hour in jittery anticipation
until I remembered, oh, the left over coffee,
which you do not normally drink,
in the fridge, was caffeinated,
Lightbulb on.
Dear girl, this morning’s prescient omens
were all a playing out of chemistry
in this reliable and forgiving body.
Simmer down, now, m
All will unfold in its due time –
there is no fire
or another blessed disaster
in the immediate.
Goodness, how beautiful, the playings out
of body and mind – who haven’t yet learned
who is driving the car.
I can remember
that part which is beyond the effects of our everyday drugs,
Watching, watching, quiet at the center,
laughing with love
at my overwrought avatar,
hitting again and again the key
we use for GO.
Life as Improv 
This: I can remember
that part which is beyond the effects of our everyday drugs,
Watching, watching, quiet at the center,
laughing with love
and for me drugs is not coffee or any other substance but the stories the mind likes to tell to keep me drugged in the sleep state. It’s very clever but more and more I see through it 🙂
with love
Alison
OH, spot on. I think you name the most powerful drug of all. I love being in rehab with you! x to you, A!
Do you remember that old Monsanto ad: “Without chemicals, life itself would be impossible”? Which makes me want to say, “something, something, blah blah blah” about truth and intention, because they were right but the way they were turning the statement was also so wrong. Trying to wake up to the fine distinctions in the chemical/emotion-driven ways my mind and body twist and turn. And patience, patience.
Oh, what a thought provoking connection you bring to the table. Patience is so beautiful. All will wash out as needed as we stick with ourselves with love!