settle down

27 Jun

When the flow of adrenaline hit the belly

I knew something big was approaching.

I was kicking the dirt

and blowing brrrray

behind the starting gate door.

Small portion fear mixed with ample dollops excitement

ready for the next disaster

sure to be a doozy.

A rough hour in jittery anticipation

until I remembered, oh, the left over coffee,

which you do not normally drink,

in the fridge, was caffeinated,

Lightbulb on.

Dear girl, this morning’s prescient omens

were all a playing out of chemistry

in this reliable and forgiving body.

Simmer down, now, m

All will unfold in its due time –

there is no fire 

or another blessed disaster

in the immediate.

Goodness, how beautiful, the playings out

of body and mind – who haven’t yet learned

who is driving the car.

I can remember 

that part which is beyond the effects of our everyday drugs,

Watching, watching, quiet at the center,

laughing with love

at my overwrought avatar,

hitting again and again the key

we use for GO.

4 Responses to “settle down”

  1. Alison and Don June 28, 2020 at 2:34 am #

    This: I can remember
    that part which is beyond the effects of our everyday drugs,
    Watching, watching, quiet at the center,
    laughing with love

    and for me drugs is not coffee or any other substance but the stories the mind likes to tell to keep me drugged in the sleep state. It’s very clever but more and more I see through it 🙂
    with love
    Alison

    • marga t. June 29, 2020 at 2:39 pm #

      OH, spot on. I think you name the most powerful drug of all. I love being in rehab with you! x to you, A!

  2. Miguel Clark Mallet June 28, 2020 at 1:23 pm #

    Do you remember that old Monsanto ad: “Without chemicals, life itself would be impossible”? Which makes me want to say, “something, something, blah blah blah” about truth and intention, because they were right but the way they were turning the statement was also so wrong. Trying to wake up to the fine distinctions in the chemical/emotion-driven ways my mind and body twist and turn. And patience, patience.

    • marga t. June 29, 2020 at 2:49 pm #

      Oh, what a thought provoking connection you bring to the table. Patience is so beautiful. All will wash out as needed as we stick with ourselves with love!

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