longing is a secret door

8 Feb

We only need to long

from our lower bellies

and our furnace hearts,

not from the jumpled frenzy of our thoughts.

Each moment

is the longing for breath,

and blood in veins

to carry what the breath brought in –

to keep us alive to long some more.

 

However, we are thinking animals

who have wallpapered over desire

with complex patterns.

We’ve forgotten where

impulse

comes from.

At the bottom of all complexity,

we can codify.

Tell me, is this list accurate?

Humans desire:

  1. to keep on breathing
  2. to pleasure the flesh
  3. to distract from the horror that comes from knowing we will die
  4. to keep on breathing

 

However,

breath will end; it will.

(enormous, this!)

Then and only then,

desiring the air of another realm

will pull us out of this life —

and though I can not prove anything to you,

I practice breathing and ending breath both;

for when my moment comes,  I desire ease.

I imagine our work on this larger breath can be gifted

to whomever needs it ~ when.

Use it with my blessing,

for I love you

in this breath.

 

 

4 Responses to “longing is a secret door”

  1. Alison and Don February 10, 2020 at 1:32 pm #

    A beautiful ode to impermanence. ❤
    Alison xo

    • marga t. February 17, 2020 at 2:24 pm #

      Maybe the only trace as we lighten and disappear.

  2. Michael March 14, 2020 at 7:03 pm #

    Your language here reminds me of Wilhelm Reich. This in particular, We’ve forgotten where | impulse | comes from…” and wallpapered over desire. There is clearly dysfunction in basing our reality on denial…

    M

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