none of this is pretty

2 Jan

When you can’t tell the difference

between what should stay or go, and

discomfort has you puppeting yourself

frantically false,

get the largest knife

from the kitchen drawer and

cut down that which has propped itself on you.

Get the long matches for the bar-b-que

and set on fire that which still can burn.

Don’t mess about forever asking questions

and making demands with your hands on your hips.

Cut it loose, already.

But if you do not,

the thousand cut route will;

for a thousand years, you will spout nonsense

and spin in your own confusion.

Do you want to wait that long?

If you are swift, have asked for no mercy, wisely,

it will come in the form of bleeding out

or burning down.

Have courage – remain. remain,

though you will feel wretched

and ashamed,

sitting in the ash and bones.

When the dust settles, the flesh rots,

remain remain and quietly,

see what is left.

Does it need a name?

6 Responses to “none of this is pretty”

  1. S January 2, 2020 at 7:03 pm #

    Good one

  2. KELLY KUHN January 4, 2020 at 3:00 am #

    This is glorious!

  3. Michael January 11, 2020 at 11:54 pm #

    Sounds vaguely like parenting. But, you’ve tapped the vein here, because standing in our wretchedness is the highest form of honesty, I think. Letting all that is false go up in flames. What remains is the gift that has always been…

    Blessings to you, my friend…

    • marga t. January 15, 2020 at 10:46 pm #

      Halo MM!
      Parenting is extreme! :0 I can’t tell you how much I appreciate the connection you make between wretchedness and honesty. Getting real at all costs is messy, for me lately especially. Thank you!

  4. Miguel Clark Mallet February 2, 2020 at 6:06 pm #

    I’ve come far enough to see the need to stop expecting mercy, but not far enough to actually do it. Still more of me to burn away.

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