baby baby

15 Nov

foot of the stairs This is me, right now.  I am a baby and I am just now gazing up the staircase to the mystery. I am a simple pip-squeak, but being a baby at the bottom of the staircase is a very good set of circumstances. There is great unknowing here. There are abounding possibilities from this spot. There is humility in knowing this, that I am a baby.  I am not tempted to claim knowledge or write a book on all I know when I stand here in my diapers. There is a focus that comes at the bottom of the stairs.  No longer does the veneer of conversation from the living room tempt me.  The smells wafting from the kitchen don’t pull me in for a feast of tastes. The raging party in the basement? Nope. I’ve got a tall set of stairs to explore!  And that is not all.  There is another floor and set of stairs beyond this one.  The floors go on forever – into infinity, for all I can tell. The speck of dust perspective is encased with a thick layer of love holding me tightly yet also compelling me up and out.  Beyond this house, there are  neighborhoods, cities, lands, oceans, a planet, then many worlds and realms in every direction, seen and unseen. When I catch glimpses of this, and the awareness of all the vastness that this little being can scarcely begin to explore, I can get a bit intimidated, yet this knowing coaxes me out of my shell and comforts, encourages me to clear the decks for exploration into what is to be found on the staircase up, sensed but invisible to baby eyes. Anybody out there want to crawl with me – up the stairs and out the skylight to the night sky to the stars to discover that not only are we babies, but we are also more than we could have ever imagined?  Let’s go look around the bend, with the eyes that never blink.

13 Responses to “baby baby”

  1. smilecalm November 15, 2014 at 9:42 pm #

    how sweet to fearlessly take baby steps!
    and be supported by a caring diaper-changer 🙂

    • marga t. November 16, 2014 at 1:27 am #

      Now you give me pause at this
      trusting way to go
      about one’s business in this universe,
      that I’ve scarcely begun to ponder.

      (you’ve been on my mind when I heard
      about the health of your dear teacher.
      Love and strength sent your and TNH’s way, David)

      • smilecalm November 16, 2014 at 2:21 am #

        thank you for your generously
        kind words and support 🙂

  2. Hariod Brawn November 16, 2014 at 12:27 am #

    Well, David has beaten me to the diaper wise-crack; but oh yes Marga, the absolute need for the beginner’s mind! As soon as I think “I know”, I am killing all potential; I am remaining in the past, which is of course, a kind of death. And by the irrelevant way, I used to know the chap who did the music in the video you display, before he moved to your shores. H ❤

    • marga t. November 16, 2014 at 1:38 am #

      It feels like the music carries the message quite well, wordlessly! Good send across the pond, H! 🙂 The subtlety of those “I know” thoughts – oye – how long I have looked and not seen! beginning ever again. Your words are such a pleasure to me! xo! marga

  3. Michael November 16, 2014 at 3:11 pm #

    The video was great… the way the music carried Alan Watt’s words as you said. I loved this line near the end: “It is only the true future that is a surprise.”

    I also loved this passage, “…because it would be so great when you woke up. And then you’d say, well, like children who dare each other on things, how far out could you get? What could you take? What dimension of being lost, of abandonment of your power– what dimension of that could you stand?”

    I don’t know if you saw the movie Inception? I thought it plucked at some of these strings quite masterfully. And I think as I sit here and write that the baby is the way back. The baby is not the newly born into the world of illusion, prepared to make a go of such fantasies, but the vessel manifested, out of its most perfect suitability, for flashing through eons of dimension and illusion and traversing directly back to the heart.

    I was just reading last night a passage from a book called the Way of Mastery that was very helpful and synchronous it seems with what is transpiring here, which contained the suggestion that one look around from time to time, sense the wind, the sun, the sky, the presence of others… and say to oneself: “I do not know what this is for.”

    Your friend on the stroll of unblinking eyes…


    • marga t. November 16, 2014 at 10:16 pm #

      Thank you, Michael – I am putting Inception on my Netflix list – it has been enough time since I have seen that film that your comment makes me realize that I am wishing to drop down into those twisty layers again. More and more the tools for freeing myself from the sludge are the things I enjoy – dancing in my kitchen, losing myself in a mind-bendy movie, cooking a good meal, stepping out into the rain – along with the phrase, “I do not know what this is for.” This phrase is a skeleton key to have in that pocket that I’ve hand sewn into my diaper cover, a tool to unlock each moment into simple wonder. Thank you for that! Now on to more zippy baby adventures. I am creating my new avatar in a diaper, but I think that baby needs a cape for all that travel you mention – even if it does lead back to the cozy heart hearth!

  4. Andrea November 17, 2014 at 2:24 am #

    Inception in a diaper on the staircase. This is hilarious, as I think I live this literally every day. There is always a (albeit gigantic) diapered baby/child gazing up the staircase, rocking back and forth, trying to decide wether, at that moment, it is worth the effort. How funny, the metaphor has been looking me in the face for such time. I officially accept this inception, and up the stairs we will go. I mean, I’ve gone to all the trouble to dream them up, along with the gigantic baby, so we might as well have a go at it. 🙂 I choose to be ‘inceived’ with you M, in diapers, with giggles, even drooling perhaps, but I think it will be a very good time!

    Alan Watts is the man, and thats just about all there is to say about him. Thank you for the video, I thought I’d seen them all, but this is a new one. Shivers down the spine, just before bedtime, just before dream time. Sleep tight!

    • marga t. November 17, 2014 at 4:02 pm #

      I might be tapping into your fabulous creations in my imaginings! What an amazing life you have created for yourself, ripe with such service and symbolism (and love love love) Acceptance accepted – up and out we shall go – very good dreamers in tandem 🙂

  5. tiramit November 17, 2014 at 4:01 am #

    Great post and the video somehow put into words something I’d been thinking about but never verbalised or understood before. Thanks for this…

    • marga t. November 17, 2014 at 4:04 pm #

      Are you the real Tiramit? 🙂 You make me see now that this is true for me too, but I had not really recognized the familiarity except in attraction. When I stumbled upon this recording I was nodding and smiling inside from the thought experiment’s truthness.

  6. Kelly Kuhn November 18, 2014 at 1:05 am #

    Ooh, baby, I’m going with you!!!

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