tasting it

13 Sep


An adventure with friends, teachers, mountains, an ocean, food, plants, an elder, wise cat, a chaise by a window, a seat at the table with many.  This was  much for a solo flyer.

Now I’m back.  Now I am returning to the day to day busyness of my life at home but changed yet again, refreshed and exhausted.

There are times I can recede and watch myself from an angle a bit above the tree line.

My deep and energetic friend (who often appears and reflects a glimpse of me around the next bend in times of great pivoting) led me on adventures into spiritual and material realms – and in doing so, led my being to return to its body.

Oh, I remember – this is what it means to be alive?

Besides the habit to detach, I also often make choices in regards to practicality in order to be careful with money; eventhough, I learned  as a small girl, a bargain isn’t always what it seems.  My grandmother was a  model in buying a few good things that would last a long time instead of stacks of cheap crap.    Her cashmere coat hangs in my closet,  still holding great structure and elegance.

A rich and rewarding small bite of quality is more engaging and lasting than a whole bag of junk.  Think:

cheetos vs. imported stilton

lipton vs. Steven Smith Teamaker

mortons vs. himalayan pink salt crystals

The Alive Being of Maren often helps me remember  to relish the experience of being in a body – a practice of enjoying the cake, ordering the snippet of delish, luxuriating in the time of a sugar scrub or a destination in the woods,  smelling the ginger as it is chopped, breaking out the china plates for no reason.  Living fully and deeply is presence without the judgemental mind reeling and railing in a battle with cost versus goodness.

Where does the beauty come in?  Where is the time for seeing – really seeing the beauty in the eyes the craft the country half a world away.  Can we allow the gifting of such beauty to help us to stop dead in our tracks and take it in – take in the intention behind every object, moment, encounter;  gifting is as perceivable as light is to the eyes.  the world can come alive in a single moment of stillness and receptivity.

What do i carry in my pocket?  Pebbles from another ocean?  porcelain mice to drop in hidden gateways along the path?   Do i listen to the music in the air?  Do i watch the ant make its way? Do I hear The Verve singing to me in the coffee shop?  Do I listen to the crow.  The man so on the edge in his projected dialogue sings along to our conversation as we walk.  Do i sit and quiet when i brew a cup of tea?  Do I choose a teabag in a box of ordinary or Oh my gosh, that Steven Smith Teamaker who sends my tongue into raptorous joy?

My mouth says to me, well, yeah, that is what I been trying to tell you!

marga has chosen a life path immersed in the chaotic energy of teenagers, right now.  I pull back and away from the frenetic energy, when actually the alchemy here is learning to stay in it,  transmuting!   Commuting moments in the car  can make space for healing conversations, stolen moments on other sides of town morph into soul encounters, awkward chunks of time provide walks in nature.

What is offered in the now?

Trees sometimes offer caves  in their trunks for crossing over – portals of roots for transporting the self deep into the earth – bark for rough and bracing tactile awakening.  If your leaves are spread against the sky receiving direct signals from the sun and your roots are in the dark underbelly of the composting earth – are you not the ultimate yin and yang of balance? – how do I end up here – suddenly prostrate at the foot of the trees?

a blog post is not a unified thing… the words flow where they will – and though I stand and teach the idea of the unification of ideas for students’ essays – i allow myself to flow where ever – capitals randomly applied.  Dashes to break up words instead of periods.  This space in this window is a fuzzy place between brain states – a place i can forget for a bit the rules – the linear flow – and find myself merging with the tree  where roots and earth enter into mysterious exchanges – finding a vein I can ride up the elevator of life in the trunk and bask on the solar paneled   roof  of leaves against sky – listening to the life going on below in my belly, in my roots – to a place where all veins meet.

5 Responses to “tasting it”

  1. prewitt1970 September 13, 2013 at 4:01 pm #

    I few previous moments are often just enough to fill the vessel for the next stage of its journey.
    Best wishes

    • marga t. September 13, 2013 at 4:18 pm #

      Filled up and emptied out 🙂 Warm wishes to you, Benjamin!

  2. Michael September 13, 2013 at 9:11 pm #

    I think you just wrote a flyer for this life we share on Planet Earth. Reminds me we’re all up to something beautiful here, together. Michael

    • marga t. September 13, 2013 at 11:28 pm #

      Tell your friends to book their trip now 🙂 You remind me of so much, tambien, Michael – as we flip from summer to fall or winter to spring – up and down together to something beautiful!

  3. seeingm September 16, 2013 at 7:55 am #

    Here is to living the yumminess that is T. -xu.M

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