there is something I’ve forgotten that is gnawing at the edges, licking behind my ear lobe, pressing the top of my skull as I sleep. I’ve had this before, the edges of dreams that press up against my waking with an urgency – a map – a need that once awake, fades into nothing but an ache that cannot be named but wants to be soothed – there is something I am being told to remember.
this happened before years ago, a feeling of knowing in the night, of task, of connection, certainty that fades yet still shoves up against me for days. I often wonder if I am being prepared for the shipwrecks coming into my life – my dreams are a locker room talk with spirit, complete with a game time strategy drawn on a dry erase board by my higher self.
For some reason, my conscious brain is kept out of loop so often. In my experience in another realm after hovering between life and death with the birth of my daughter, I remember being held – full body held in the arms of someone immense who whispered in my ear the love and support that was with me. And I was told then of the game plan too, but the details never came back. I live in the moment with a constant case of deja vu.
The being came again and again for years giving me refreshers, downloads, and reboots, all of it fading upon light. The matches are stowed safely away from this baby.
It doesn’t even matter; the knowledge of the reality beyond this little life is first hand. The love and support and peek behind the veil is first hand. Perhaps Rabbit holes and traps exist for the identity with too much information. Or may be that fulfilling my path takes a certain blindness to make it the real journey and not a cake walk 😉
Life as Improv 
Wow, we really are syncing up again with out posts. I can really feel that elusive quality seeping through the dream, i suspect you’re on the mark there with needing a certain blindness to fulfill the path, I don’t know how else we could possibly do this – it ain’t no cake walk!
Yes! And I forgot to compliment you for your skillful use of the word “ain’t” – first Canadian I’ve seen/heard use that effective contraction 🙂 Hope you are flowing well, Erin!
I’m guessing if it’s really important, you would remember it… or it would already be factored into your waking life. Your higher self would make sure of it. ♥ Thx for the Cranberries!
Just trusting what is! Just strange the way the mist lingers so! Right after something happens, I remember this just happening event and say, oh yeah, this is that part – like rewatching a classic movie from childhood. Can’t make any money as the psychic that way, haha! Hope you are enjoying your flow today, Maddy!