Looking back I can see that for a long time, the math of my identity was this:
many things > me
This is an equation that was ever present yet hidden in plain sight. i wouldn’t have admitted to doing this math constantly – comparing myself to others and always imagining I came up lacking.
When this basic equation sets the value of everything, other dynamics can enter, such as:
many things > me + (a+b+c+d…..)
A natural response to this equation is to add things to oneself to feel less less than, but the basic symbol will still stand in the middle, affecting all components of the equation. You cannot add enough things to change the sign.
When you have incorrect math in your head, you are not relating to your experience with your true value.
Some people manage to flip it to be: everything < me.
But most of us can see that this is just a reaction to feeling less than, too.
False equations are heavy and painful and incorrect.
Here is a helpful equation:
everything = me
when this is true, it is a short leap to: all is me.
Seems I couldn’t change my equation until I was ready. So when I see this incorrect math in the reflection of other people, I can love them and wait patiently for them from the other side of the equal sign, but I cannot solve the inequality in their heads.
When we wake to see the real numbers and can remember the real worth of ourselves, we learn the value of everything!
Mmmm pi, 😉 I like your equation, I find that you are greater than the sum of your parts.
Benjamin
Kindest math ever, Benjamin – We are greater than the sum; you are genius at math too? Pi for breakfast 🙂 Hope sleep was your friend, or the night passed with ease.
Thank you it did finally