I signed up.
I must have.
This is what some days look like at spiritual boot camp.
There is something so right on about the recognition that it is now, not in the summer, not after I stop working, not in the next life. Like this Blog Name (http://awakein365days.com) suggests, this is it. You’ve got to admire the full blown focus.
In my purse on my catch all little notebook, a Mooji Quote, that had been scribbled in haste, was found just as the floor fell out from under me in 2011 as I left my 20 year marriage.
“Push everything aside; Find out who you are. The rest will sort itself out.”
Those were the right words to help me adjust to the new groundless state of moving forward; even though, I felt like a quaking mountain of goo at the time.
For a long time I thought that in life people matured and learned and became wiser. I assumed this to be true. This is not true for a good many people.
I really saw this once in an overheard conversation between two people in their 70’s. I heard mean gossip, deeply masked pain, and ego feeding codependencies without any shielding so immature, so similar to a middle-school dynamic, that I was shaken and heartbroken for them, for all of us. We all know these sides of ourselves. We are this in our forgetting.
These two had been practicing their religion devoutly for their entire lives. Where was the growth? Where was the change? I had that Peggy Lee moment…
My searching began to recognize some souls awakening with humility, grace, humor, and ease. I began there.
Tangible growth can happen; certain behaviors can fall away for good; that is not all there is. Not from effort does this come, but by illusions being dropped, for good.
Enlisting.
Something hears you when you make this choice.
Things appear that are needed to help you along the way. Those two screamers above are not an unfamiliar mirror to me. My darling daughters in teen years have proven to be the most wonderful sand blasters I could have ever invented. But just as often, what is sent is soft and gentle: a breeze, a dolphin encounter, a hand-written note.
Some days feel an Everest climb, but then I see the cookies and lemonade at the next plateau and I keep on.
Always it seems less of me there is, the more flow occurs, and the more and more peace I can hold as a space for all of us. Loving the peace inside, wishing you the same. X!
Here we all are, one by one, waking up !
Life as Improv 
Loved the Peggy Lee moment…powerful!
Thank you Cheyenne! Weird to sit down and “stuff” flows out of no where. Happy Orb Exploration, tonight! xmarga
I love the quote “Push everything aside; Find out who you are. The rest will sort itself out.” Good for you, for enlisting! What a bold step. I used to think the same thing, that people just naturally became wiser with age. Then one day, after an encounter with a mean old man, I thought, “wow, even @ss-holes get old” and it dawned on me that you’ve got to work to become better and wiser. Getting older doesn’t take care of it for you.
Seems funny to me now to have ever assumed that getting older will help one get wiser-so many examples of ones choosing the Slow Boat – it seems:) I value your shares of your journey and enjoy the flow of your words! I had a weird deja vu when I opened your blog; is that a picture of you in the hat on the front page? I felt like I was seeing someone very familiar to me.
Yup…it’s me and my husband. Sometimes we do encounter people we feel like we’ve known before, or forever…it’s strange.
So strange, when i first opened your page I thought that you were famous, both of your faces were so familiar. I don’t get that too much. Hope your journeys today bring you understanding and peace!
Well good for you, sorry to hear about the seperation thats a long time, big change. But you seem to be doing everything right. Everyday is a challenge and a blessing. I know this from the personal challenges I face. I too find myself on a diffrent path than I thought two years ago. but one thing in my short time on this rock that I have come to depend on is things change, and if we pay attention and were lucky then we change with them and grow.
Namaste
Benjamin
Benjamin. I am enjoying the ride, even with all the changes, immensely! So cool to get peeks into the experiences and creations of all of those in our community here – I find myself curious how you produce so much art, post so many lovely words and sounds, and take care of the “day to day”?!?
Thank you for the kind words!
marga
Ha, words. They just come out of my head and heart. As you can probably tel I often dont edit prior to posting, As the PD make my short term memory almost non existant. So when its time to write I have to let it flow. Painting, im not sure what to say, Ive ben told by many other painters in my life they dont understand hoe I can produce so much work. I dont know either it just comes out. I dont sleep much 3-5 hrs a day and usualy not at night or at a time, so my “active” hrs are much more than most peoples. Im on disability due to my PD so I have time most “normal” peopple dont have. The day to day just happens as you know things just have to get done. I also usually have mulitple paintings going at a time so I’ll paint on one while the others are drying and so on.
Thank you for your time and words, may the world embrace all that you are and all that you will become.
namaste
Benjamin
Ah, gotta love the power of the flow – bypassing that critical editor gets to the most interesting stuff with words! I remember a star trek episode when I was a kid that had another race coexisting on the enterprise, but they were at a much higher frequency. The crew perceived the sound of mosquitos…that was them flying by in their normal activity much faster. We look like that to trees I imagine. Your output and rhythm seem at a higher speed 🙂 We are all embraced now and in things to come, I feel it and count on it. Hope your day flows beautifully 🙂
Ha I remember that episode as well. and thank you may the day embrace you and guide you to the places you need.
Namaste
Benjamin
Hi
You write so well,your Heart and compassion is always evident.
Expectancy will fill a bucket before its full and produce ingratitude for still appearing to be empty.
Peegy Lee sings a song about a woman who sits in her world of delusion, feeling triumphant at dismissing what ever she has experienced as not living up to her Expectations of what ever it was.
If there were no expectations there would be no song to sing. Oh hallelujah Sister now your Free.
What happens next, Nothing, beautiful Sweet Nothing, It finds you. And it turns your world upside down. No thinking, No doing, No expectation. The disintegration of the fabric of your Karma starts to happen.
Then you sing the song of forgiveness and light starts to come out of your eyes, out of your smile.
People say wow you have changed I hardly recognise you.
Yes you say, what you saw before was just a shadow, I am becoming my real self now.
Journey Well
Russell,
How beautiful is every word you wrote? “Oh hallelujah Sister now you’re Free” – says it all. Your awareness of this journey saturates your writing and pings recognition in me! You also have a very nice stream of consciousness flow! Here’s to light flowing out of eyes and smiles…pure magic flow with no expectations.
Grateful Heart for your sharing.
xmarga
Thanks Marga T! Somedays this does feel exactly like spiritual bootcamp and I am questioning my enlistment! I’m experiencing every possible emotion, just like that baby waking up from a deep sleep. You seem to say things that I need to hear in the exact right moment and everything suddenly seems brighter again. Wishing you love and peace too. Namaste!
Unlike Military Bootcamp, Spiritual Bootcamp does allow for respites – stepping aside and taking a breather, with favorite earthly comforts. There does seem to be overlap with your posts and pointings and mine..Parhaps this mirroring comes from flowing in the stream together, riding certain currents…so nice to know we don’t ride alone. xmarga