Sometimes falling out of the boat is the best thing that can happen.
When I found myself once again in a struggle with existence, relationships, overwhelm, and fatigue last night and this morning, it took me a while to remember to give up. Now “I” give up, for real…back to little “i” once again!
Time to get back in the boat and let the mother carry me…mothering for the mother.
“Leave your existence to existence, stop caring for yourself
so much and let the universe care for you;
it is the best mother.
There has to be some trust, not just belief,
because trust is intimate…
something lets go to this invitation to stop holding yourself
and let’s go to existence instead.
The very letting go will be observed in your presence.”
-Mooji
I orchestrated the perfect scenarios to pressure wash the hidden corners of clinging. Turns out, I have an identity that is called “The Good Mother,” and when she feels threatened, she rocks the boat a bit. Actually, she turned the boat on end so I could finally see the imaginary WEIGHT of her. She was dried off, tenderly cradled and sent on, back into the energetic stream.
It all sounds so easy after the fact, but in the throws of forgetting, the thrashing is anything but easy.
How many of these labels do we carry around with us? Good Mother, Hard Worker, Good Girl, Quick Student…what are some others? Let’s get them on their way. They are really heavy! The Light Body is actually Lighter 🙂 Universe likes to Pun!
Enjoy your flow in the river, if you happen here. Nice to share the ride with you!
Life as Improv 
Our natural loving lightheartedness can never be squashed by the temporary heavy illusions, though as you point out — cut these rascals loose and notice the often overlooked light all flowing energies always arise in. interesting post
I love your wording, here. I have read about the experiences of those for whom the lifting of the heavy illusions happens instantaneously yet there also seems a path of gradual lifting…”the light all flowing energies always arise in”…always there. Thank you !
Wow – again another beautiful post… And so synchronistic because I was working on a post last week about the spiritual masks we wear – the buddha mask, the do-gooder mask, the guru mask etc. But I like the way you made it human and personal. Life As Improv is my new favourite blog!
Thank you so much, Aalif! I’m becoming more aware of this stripping away of masks, on deeper levels. Some seem hidden where the sun doesn’t shine. And I am seeing how it seems much better to catch them sooner versus later 🙂 I love your blog as well – especially the depth you are able to reach with what you are exploring. With the apparent demands of family life, I have to sneak my posts in fast. Thank you for your generous participation with your own writing and with others on the path with you! LOVELY!
Oh wow! Thank you for your kind words. My invisible doggie tail is going all wag-wag right now 🙂
I actually love that about your blog — how casual and friendly it is, like you would speak to a dear friend. And yet how many gems are hidden in between the lines. I sometimes feel my posts are too stiff and essay-like, bordering on a tone of self-important expounding of wisdom! 🙂 When I grow up, I want to be able to write like you…
So nice of you, Aalif. I’ve been serving those in my life in a dogged and quiet way for a while, so writing and connecting feels very freeing right now. I am really enjoying playing in this format and reading the rich and beautiful words of others who feel like good friends – despite the distance and newness of interaction! The truth of others is becoming ever more apparent, and your voice and others all seem so SHINY to me! Your kindness and kind words – and precious dog tail wag metaphor – are treasured here 🙂
I am glad you listen to Mooji! He is one of my favorites ~
Here’s to a Wondrous Happy New Year 2013 filled with Joy, Peace and Love!
Tomas
I wonder if I need to let Mooji know he is my “never met” guru? ha. His pointing quickly helps me shed delusions – and the compassion in his eyes, wow! We are that too, he helps me remember. Wondrous year of Joy, Peace and Love – of course – back to you and all! Thank you, Tomas, for good wishes but also for the great posts and pointing in your blog.
X!marga
I am impressed with your personal insight.
So much learning this year. I revisited this post with your new comment and was disoriented by the distortion in time – seems so long ago, though it was not 🙂 Enjoying the peek into your travels – of late!